Perks of being Invisible

Tag: perks

Dear Friend,
                 I obviously have the incapability to remember I was going to do this once a week, almost a month has passed but February was so mundane. I am currently studying for GCSE’s probably one of the worst decisions of my life was to attempt to achieve A* in every single one, which isn’t going very well especially as I have neglected my two biggest loves; sleep and food. 
I guess thats why I am not being committed to my blogging. I want to be more committed though, I feel that its nice that I can be almost completely anonymous and vent at the world. Obviously you know my name is Charley, on the other hand you know no other “baggage” as I like to call it. I think its easier to open up to people who don’t know a thing about you. But just so you know, I am the most boring person you would ever meet. I don’t do anything I sit at home every weekend and I never go out, with the exception of yesterday. My grandparents took us all out for Chinese which was nice and I have finally found a friend in chopsticks, but to be honest I would have rather of had a takeaway and sat in my room on my laptop listening to music then maybe I could have talked to you? 
Love Always,
Charley

Dear Friend,
                  I have had a worse week then you can imagine. Our whole group had a fall out, what over I will never know but it’s affected everyone pretty badly. Especially as words got manipulated and all that rubbish! I felt like most of it was my fault, even though I hadn’t done anything wrong, do you ever get that? I feel like that especially when I stare at the sky and contemplate my existence, why am I still here? I must have done something wrong to turn out the way I have? Anyway besides the point I am now going to try and blog once a week because it’s better to vent, and being my ‘friend’ I can vent at you? If that’s okay?  
              Although this week has had its highlights…I guess, so I have seen various people I was very happy to see.. apart from that this week has been average apart from that this week has been dull.. sometimes I wonder what is the point….
Love Always,
Charley

Dear Friend,
Today was awful. Time seemed to go to quickly for me to keep up and frankly coffee just doesn’t go down well when this happens…I guess I will be awake til god knows when. And I had school. I don’t like school. It seems like someone is always judging you for any little thing you do…I just don’t get why it is necessary for me to spend so much time in a place which ruins my self esteem. People look at me like I am weird, okay so maybe you need a little background info. I am 16 yet have the face of a 12 year old. People look at me weirdly because I have obsessions with ribbons, mermaids and Sherlock. These things make me very excited… but they look at me like I am not mature enough for them. It kind of hurts. Anyway I guess I have a small group of friends: Paige, Chloe, Sian, Taylor, Charlotte and Lucy. They are really nice… I guess they don’t mind that I am overly chirpy and love crazy things. Anyway I had Chemistry which I am failing today. I don’t like it molecules just don’t connect with me. Just everything sucks, apart from the fact I got to drink my coffee in Chemistry. Maybe it is because it is a Monday?

Love Always,
Charley